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[beastkingnaoma]

So, apparently I have a condition that's causing my uh. Slowness.

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[remarkablerain.livejournal.com]

... A... Condition?

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

It's called 'punch eye'.

You seize up whenever something is coming at you.

[remarkablerain.livejournal.com]

When did you go ahead and get something like that.

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

I have no idea.

It's apparently caused by trauma.

[remarkablerain.livejournal.com]

... So what does this mean, then. For uh. You dueling.

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

I don't think it means anything.

I can still duel just fine!

[remarkablerain.livejournal.com]

Are you sure. You wouldn't be saying this if it weren't, you know. An issue.

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

It won't be an issue!

If it is I'll. cure myself.

[remarkablerain.livejournal.com]

How do you cure yourself from that.

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

I'll figure it out.

[sees-the-sea.livejournal.com]

...that doesn't sound like a problem you've ever had before.

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

It's not.

I've never even known anyone who had it.

[sees-the-sea.livejournal.com]

Weird. Any idea what caused it?

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

A couple, not any I like very much.

[sees-the-sea.livejournal.com]

Well, what are they?

Tell me in private if you want, not like these two care.

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

Well.

The obvious thing is that getting turfed by Ghost traumatized me, but that's fucking stupid and I refuse to consider it.

The other thing is that.

Well. Uh.

Getting turfed by Wisel is the first time I've really been hurt since I got that dragon stuff yanked out of me. So. I dunno. Maybe I'm feeling my mortality or something.

[sees-the-sea.livejournal.com]

...hn.

I think I sorta get it.

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

I guess being vulnerable after uh. Not being. For so long screwed me up?

[sees-the-sea.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Yeah, I think I get that.

...think it'll mess you up when dueling?

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

Iii'd rather get over it before I have to duel without autopilot, I'd rather not hit the wall at 120km.

[sees-the-sea.livejournal.com]

Uhh, good idea.

What're you gonna do?

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

I. Haven't the foggiest.

[sees-the-sea.livejournal.com]

...I'm sorta drawing a blank too.

...facing Ghost again would probably be stupid, huh.

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

Probably.

Maybe I need to find some way to feel invincible again.

[sees-the-sea.livejournal.com]

That's just kinda prolonging the problem, isn't it?

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

True.

I don't feel like injecting myself with anything anyway.

So I dunno.

[sees-the-sea.livejournal.com]

I guess you have to find some way to come to terms with your mortality?

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

Something like that.

[sees-the-sea.livejournal.com]

...me saying it's okay probably wouldn't help, and would be stupid, right?

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

Pretty much yes.

[sees-the-sea.livejournal.com]

Good. I'm doing it anyway.

It's okay to be afraid of your own mortality. Even in normal places, but especially here.

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

Ugh.

I thought I knew that, but apparently I don't.

[sees-the-sea.livejournal.com]

Well.

Don't worry. I know you, you'll figure something out.

[sees-the-light.livejournal.com]

Are you sure it won't be a problem?

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

As long as I get over it before the actual WRGP starts, yes.

I really don't want to shut down for a few seconds when I'm supposed to be controlling a bike.

[sees-the-light.livejournal.com]

And how do you intend to get over it?

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

I have no clue.

[sees-the-light.livejournal.com]

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

..I'll figure it out..!

[sees-the-light.livejournal.com]

Do it quickly.

[beastkingnaoma.livejournal.com]

I'll be trying!